Tonight I went to a family gathering with the kiddies. First of all, I'm crazy to go anywhere with two kids under two. What was I thinking? Pure chaos. When I wasn't chasing kids or calming tantrums, I was trying to join in on the adult conversation. Why do I try?!!! I would rejoin the group, try to figure out who was talking then stare hard at them trying to figure out what they were talking about. Someone else would comment and I would shift attention to the comment to try and fill in the conversation holes. Main speaker starts talking again, I shift back to her. Still trying to figure out the topic, let alone what she's saying about the topic. Someone notices I'm not getting it and try to help me. But they are talking while other conversations are happening and a bunch of kids are running around. I still have no idea what is being said. I just fake it and act like I'm understanding...... again!
It would have been easier to stay home. I certainly did not gain anything from going. Should I just avoid all gatherings? Of course not. But oh, I so want to!
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